My Dear Amy,
Today I felt your presence as I sat in temple on Yom Kippur and came across the poem you once wrote about in your blog. It brought a smile to my face as I realized that only two years before you read the same words I was reading at that moment. As I was reading that poem, another great quote came into my mind that seems to resonate deeper on this day. It was only a few weeks before you passed away that we were up at three in the morning sitting by the fire discussing Kierkegaard when we were supposed to be studying for a Hume and Hobbes final. You told me a wonderful quote that you felt when taken out of context could be a way to approach life. I only truly understood your interpretation in the months following your death.
"He is not cowardly, he is not afraid to let his love steal in upon his most secret, most hidden thoughts, to let it twine itself in countless coils around every ligament of his consciousness....Having thus imbibed all the love and adsorbed himself in it, he no longer lacks the courage to attempt and risk everything" – Kierkegaard
Sitting in temple reflecting on our sins of the past, I was brought back to these words. I don’t know if I will ever be there Ames but I think this journey has brought me that much closer. I have the first four words on my road id so I can be reminded of them every time I workout. The countless hours alone on the bike, running along the beach or in the silence of the pool have forced me alone with my own thoughts to face that night and all that has followed. You are the reason I am doing it. I hate that it took losing you to remind me how lucky I am but I promise that I will not let you down. I know you will be out there with me on Nov 1st. I hope that I have made you proud Amy. I love you always and miss you each and every day.
Today I felt your presence as I sat in temple on Yom Kippur and came across the poem you once wrote about in your blog. It brought a smile to my face as I realized that only two years before you read the same words I was reading at that moment. As I was reading that poem, another great quote came into my mind that seems to resonate deeper on this day. It was only a few weeks before you passed away that we were up at three in the morning sitting by the fire discussing Kierkegaard when we were supposed to be studying for a Hume and Hobbes final. You told me a wonderful quote that you felt when taken out of context could be a way to approach life. I only truly understood your interpretation in the months following your death.
"He is not cowardly, he is not afraid to let his love steal in upon his most secret, most hidden thoughts, to let it twine itself in countless coils around every ligament of his consciousness....Having thus imbibed all the love and adsorbed himself in it, he no longer lacks the courage to attempt and risk everything" – Kierkegaard
Sitting in temple reflecting on our sins of the past, I was brought back to these words. I don’t know if I will ever be there Ames but I think this journey has brought me that much closer. I have the first four words on my road id so I can be reminded of them every time I workout. The countless hours alone on the bike, running along the beach or in the silence of the pool have forced me alone with my own thoughts to face that night and all that has followed. You are the reason I am doing it. I hate that it took losing you to remind me how lucky I am but I promise that I will not let you down. I know you will be out there with me on Nov 1st. I hope that I have made you proud Amy. I love you always and miss you each and every day.
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